the others

I just wonder why there are people who do not know what their limitations are. Okay! Perhaps they are not that stupid not to know what they are bound to do. It is just that they are so abusive of the opportunity given to them; their faces are so thick that they do not embody the essences of delicadeza and utang na loob anymore. That is, if they are given 1 hectare of land to plow, they will take 10 hectares without taking into consideration that there are still other people who may badly be needing the remaining parts of the land. OMG!
Pardon me if I may sound arrogant but this is just too much! These people have stepped on us several times. They have forsaken us many times. And if words are just deadly, they might have killed us already. Yet, here they are, acting as if nothing happened; that things should just be the same; forgive and forget. Yeah, right! I can forgive, but I doubt if I can forget. Forgetting is the hardest thing for me. I, myself, do not understand why. If it is just me, if there will be any possibility for me to get back to these people, I will absolutely be glad to take it. But there are people dear to me who hold me back. They know me enough to keep me calm and cool to prevent unsolicited events from happening.
Sure. I will do my thing. Just do not go my way, for there are unexpected things I can do. What can these be? Beats me! If I were Sir Dids, I will pertain to these ungrateful, obnoxious people as creatures. But to me, they are simply the others.

dreaming for 23 years and counting

I can always describe myself as a dreamer. I love to plan and imagine situations where I want myself to be in the future. Some of them are feasible, others are just extraordinary. A number of them are being implemented already, but most of them are just in anticipation of being done.
The show Maalala Mo Kaya has always been interesting, especially nowadays that the actors being invited to portray true-to-life roles can be considered big stars. Not to mention that I have a good friend (Hi Benjamin Benson Logronio!!! Sign-up! Sign-up! Hahaha!) who works for the show.
It was Angel Locsin’s episode last Saturday. There was nothing superb about her, except from the fact that she is gifted with a perfect body and beautiful face which both make her soooo hot!!! Anyway, I could not help myself from sneering as I watch her character dream. I saw in her the conviction I had before. We had the same lines (graduating with flying colors form UP) and the same reactions. I guess, the only difference was the level of frustration every time things turn out the way we do not inferred them to be. Mine, I believe, was just subtle. Oh hell yes, I will forever be pressured but apparently, no one triggers it except me. On the other hand, Angel’s character was burdened due to everyone including herself. This type of setup is bound to failure for you are already clouded with your goal of reaching the top immediately, without taking into consideration that there is still an arduous journey that must be finished. I just feel fortunate that I am not like her. I am not forced to share for the house expenses, especially if my budget is too tight. I can ask/borrow money from my parents or from Kuya if I feel like being a stingy on my salary. I can request Mama to buy the things I need (or want) without paying her back J. I can spend my income with anything I desire. I can live day by day without thinking of how my future will become, because I am certain that even if the worse comes to worst, my family will back me up. But this is not the life I have dreamt of. I did not study hard from reputable schools just to live the way I am living now.
I do have action plans in mind, but then again, they will just be plans unless executed. I want to believe that I am just in the stage of life enjoyment, but I have realized that life can still be enjoyed while building the future.
Just two days from now, I will be 23 years old, yet what is currently happening to my life is not what I have dreamt of. I have envisioned far better than this. But who cares? This is my life, and I want to be my own master. I will continue dreaming and will never stop. And one of these days, I will surely become a living proof that dreaming combined with the right attitude and approach, no matter how difficult life can be, will forever be worth it.