fighting spirit

I was looking for a challenge in my work right now, for I find my tasks very humdrum. However, I never imagined putting myself into something tougher than what I looked forward to.
Being a fortunate employee, I was given a chance to take advantage of a career move. But I chose to acquire a much bigger leap—an action which, many of my officemates believe (though they would not admit), is a lose-lose situation.
Why did I choose the more rigid path, when there is a safer route available? Simple. I am in a hurry. I have to establish my career NOW. Otherwise, it will be so easy for me to resign and just be a bum, a law student, or an employee in another company. I have numerous choices. And right now, disappointment is but nothing, for I know that I will exhaust all my means to attain my goals.
Well, I know myself better than other people do. And I recognize for a fact that NEVER in my life did I put myself into something where I did not excel (…given that I have done my part, for I have failed UP Law once. Sh*t!) I have history as my witness. This was not just about being lucky enough. This was basically because I work really hard when I engage myself into something. Believe me when I say that I do not want lousy results. (Who the hell does, by the way?) I always strive to be one of the bests, if not the best, among the group.
My abilities will then be tested in three weeks time. And a week after this three-week long training, I am yet to face UP LAE (once more!). My golly! Suicidal it is, only if I think so. But for now, there is no room for failure. I have already let myself down once. I will not make it happen again.

perhaps i care

I just feel I am struggling for relevant information nowadays. I do not watch television anymore. This hinders me to acquire knowledge of news and current affairs, which were readily available when I was still in UP. F*ck! Here I go again, missing everything in UP…well, specifically being tagged as clued-up.
I hate the fact that I am unable to keep track of de Venecia-Neri-Abalos-ZTE Broadband deal trial on television. I just read the papers, which apparently lack the drama and nonverbal acts (i.e. the ‘exciting’ and ‘entertaining’ parts).
We often regard the Philippine technocrats as dirty, corrupt and dishonest parasites. That is why stereotyping is never good. I agree with Isagani Cruz when he said that some politicians (very few, that is) are truthful, but not just brave enough (evidently referring to former NEDA Sec. Romulo Neri). The executive privilege Neri was posing was perceptibly not for his own welfare, but to cover up the puppet, fascist and self-centered leader of the Philippine government. Hay!
Being workaholic is never an excuse to be ignorant and irrational. We must not settle for anything deficient at hand. Hence, we have to seek for the whole picture and build prudent viewpoints out of it. Not only we test our critical thinking ability, but we also project that we are not apathetic Filipinos.