rock me

I’m feeling that I will soon giveup. I can’t take the pressure anymore. I feel so burdened. I can’t think of anythingthat can make me laugh right now. It seems that wherever I go, another crisiswill wholeheartedly welcome my presence… If I were just a solid rock I wouldnever be like this…well…a stone will be good enough. It is still hard–numbfrom being hurt, but will surely be painful when thrown to somebody…

just facing the truth

Nothing… I just want to say that they are users…losers…gold diggers!!!
You are just but a piece of shit if you don’t conform to whatever they want you to do. It’s as if they instantly obtain amnesia, that they can easily forget EVERYTHING you have done for them. They can treat you as an enemy by far, without thinking of all the favors they have asked from you. I guess, in life, you must really meet people like them to be able to face the reality that you have more important things to focus all your attention, efforts, and resources to. I hope I learned my lesson now. I will be of use to them, never again…never, never, never again. Promise!

Thanks ULS

I do treasure my friends. To me, they are very, very, very precious. People may initially brand me as snobbish and all, but honestly, once I consider a person a friend, he/she is truly for keeps.
That’s why it’s really upsetting for me to realize that there are individuals, I regard as friends, who cling on to me just to satisfy their own welfare…to the point that I already look stupid, not just to them, but even to those people who highly respect me for what I have already become. They’re so selfish…self-centered… They’re real bitches!!!
Here’s the catch… I am completely aware of what’s happening! Haha! I’m not silly …so why wouldn’t I notice it? I am aware that they are just being gold diggers…that they are just my angels when they are in front of me, but existent demons once I turn my back…that from a rational person, I’m immediately transforming to a stupid, dim-witted, brainless, slow, dull, silly (whatever you want to call it) slave who abides by every rule they impose. Damn!!! But despite this idiocy recognition, I keep on coming back to them. Perhaps I’m just thinking that the friendship may be saved. Hehe! Ludicrous principle. Tsk! Tsk! Tsk!
Because of this, I’m slowly neglecting my very true friends—those people who have always been there, may it be during my highest high, but more importantly, during my lowest low. They have already seen me in my best and even in my worst. We already have gone through a lot of obstacles but we remain intact…stronger and better.
To Mavreen, Gracia, Tricia, Joan, Mon and Mex: I am really grateful for having you as my friends. You have accepted me whether my wallet is thick or thin. You are my angels who have never transformed to demons. You always help me to be rational again and again. Thank you for always being there for me…for helping me rise from every stumble. I can’t imagine my life after graduation without you, my dear ULS… *sigh. sigh.* I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!

Unpredicted Glee

Things are really unpredictable… In life, you must really be brave enough to take chances…even risks. Nothing would happen if you continue accepting what our crooked society dictates. Sometimes, you have to go beyond your limits to know the other side of the world. The journey is but arduous—it is always given. Obstructions will definitely be there to test your disposition. But when you come out as a victor, believe me, it’s all worth it…
I just wish that the happiness I am feeling right now will last. But I guess it will perish sooner or later. I just hope that I will be able to get back to my journey immediately…proudly… fearlessly…

another ordinary day

Today is a holiday because it’s my birthday!!!

It’s my birthday…so…I’m supposed to be happy…happy…happy…but I don’t feel like it. Imagine, with all the friends I have, I just received 7 SMS birthday greetings! Yes! Only S-E-V-E-N!!! It’s very depressing because I don’t feel special on my birthday. Perhaps I’m really not…sad… Well, it’s possibly because I don’t have my Globe number anymore. People couldn’t send messages to my Smart number because they availed the Globe unlimited SMS service…no credits for other network users. Okay… And surely, many of them are not aware yet that I just lost my phone. They might have sent messages to my Globe number. Argh! Okay…okay…okay… But no matter how hard I try to justify the situation, I can’t help it…I am still sad. I feel so ignored…

stupidity

I lost my phone…my very precious Sony Ericsson P910i! Who would have thought that in just about 20 seconds of closing a faucet in the comfort room, my phone would be stolen! I don’t want to tag myself as stupid, but I guess the incident implies that…only in this particular event, I must say.
My parents always tell me to take care of my things. Every time I would go out of the house, I would always hear my mom say, “Where did you put your phone? Ingatan mo yan, Len. Itago mong mabuti.” And because I was confident enough that my phone would not be lost, I would just reply, “Oo. Nandito sa bag ko.” Hearing these words, Mama would already go ballistic. I will hear her utter, “Nasa bag mo lang? Saan banda diyan? Baka pinapabayaan mo lang?” And true enough, I suppose I actually overlooked the fact that my phone would be an apple to every snatcher’s eyes. I became incautious. When my phone was still new, I remember that merely carrying it made me so nervous. In traveling, if Papa would not drive for me, I would always ride a cab after going down from MRT. I would also open my bag so often, just to check if my phone was safe. But through time, this watchfulness faded little by little. And so now, I lost my phone…my very precious Sony Ericsson P910i! I lost my contacts, my pictures, my MP3’s, my videos, my 2006 birthday messages, my special messages…
Thinking about this, I realized that the situation is much worse. I just have 3 more days before my birthday. Many of my friends are Globe users. Thus, they are getting in touch with me through my Globe number. Yeah right! The power of unlimitxt…But I don’t have this number anymore. I lost my phone, remember?! Huhu! Nice pre-birthday gift! I will just pray for the soul of whoever stole it. I hope my dear P910i will be of great purpose to that individual.