Sunday, April 22, 2007

time to embark on a new start

I am officially a graduate of the University of the Philippines, Diliman. We had our college graduation yesterday. And just this afternoon, we finally marched in our university graduation. After being an Iskolar ng Bayan, I am to face the responsibility of being an Iskolar para sa Bayan.
Life outside UP…or life of not being a student rather, will surely be sad. Benedicto Cabrera a.k.a Ben Cab, national artist for visual arts, was our college graduation’s guest speaker. In his speech, he cited ten reasons why it is annoying to graduate. With the pop culture language, he emphasized his very line, “bad trip ang magtapos.” Some of the reasons he pointed out are (1) wala nang baon…wala nang responsibilidad ang mga magulang mo na bigyan ka ng allowance, (2) ikaw na ang magbabayad ng mga bills (e.g. telephone, water) at magpapaaral sa mga nakababata mong mga kapatid, (3) kapag hindi mo na kaya ang trabaho, hindi na pwede ang mag-drop lang, (4) hindi na pwede ang maximum of six absences…tatlong beses ka lang um-absent sa trabaho, tingnan natin kung ‘di ka masipa kaagad, (5) wala nang kaibigan…hindi naman pwedeng pumasok kayong lahat ng mga kaibigan mo sa isang kumpanya lang.
The graduation of the College of Arts and Letters was really fun. We enjoyed the music and the cheering galore. But the university graduation, on the other hand, was quite serious. Atty. Victor a.k.a. Chito Avecilla, my very frightful but exceptional professor in BC 100, was the master of ceremonies in the 96th Commencement Exercises of UP. My senses were somehow stimulated when he told us to relish our last few minutes as students. I became a little emotional then to the point that my eyes became teary… Oh yes… It was our last moment as official students. And by now, I am not a student anymore. I will surely look forward to becoming a professional soon. As an idea taken from Ben Cab’s speech…bad trip magtapos pero tapos na ako. Tapos na ako. Panahon naman para magsimula na. I am yet to be challenged in the start of the next phase of my life, after successfully fulfilling the previous one.

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

i hate me

I saw him again! I really did not expect it, but I caught a glimpse of him while he was walking in the Sunken Garden. He just had his haircut. I actually told him to get a neat hairstyle, and he finally did it. I guess I influenced him in a way… Shit! Why am I being like this?!!! I thought I already psyched myself. I believed I would be unruffled. But damn!!! How could I get excited once more by a mere sight of him?! How could he make my heart throb like this? How stupid I could get!!! I already know the consequences but here I go again… I hate myself for being like this! I H-A-T-E myself!!!

Sunday, April 15, 2007

ending and beginning

And after a long wait, it was made clear-cut…no fuzzy stands for me. At last, my considerations can be laid down now.
Though I believe I have still been prolific, my seven months were frittered away. I mean, I might have done so much more if only I learned to divert my attention. And now, I must face the fact that I have wasted so much time and effort in pursuing a folly. Excruciating it may seem, but at least, I am realizing this now. I am finally trying to put a definite track for my future. I am now ready to accomplish what would be the best for me and for the principles I believe in, without taking into account a stupid assumption. Thanks to you…

Saturday, April 7, 2007

A Consequence of Doing Thesis

I was trying to organize my files in my laptop when I opened a picture folder by chance. I just laughed when I again realized how thesis can miserably affect people. Good thing if all the tension can make you look at your best. But unfortunately, all the stress can definitely make you appear ohhhhhhhhh soooooooo harassed.
Living example, my friend Leah Ma… She is known for being a fashionista—really dressed up every time I see her. But because of her thesis obligations, she would not care of how she looked anymore so long as she could accomplish her thesis works. She even learned how to keep on track and to relax by finishing 2 or more bottles of beer. Hahaha! See the picture? Leah=Bangag!!! But don’t worry Leah… Despite what thesis has done to you, in my honest opinion, you will forever be beautiful inside and out. And now that you are through with your thesis, you can again manage to look gorgeous everyday.

Thursday, April 5, 2007

Living Alone

I finally finished my thesis!!! Yehey! I had my defense just this Monday and had accomplished the revisions only yesterday. The feeling is really gratifying… I checked the CRS and found out that all of my grades are already in. I can say that I am officially a graduating student! I will soon be an alumna of U-Na-I-Ba-E-Ra-Sa-I-Da-A-Da Na-Ga Pa-I-La-I-Pa-I-Na-A-Sa!!! Whew!
After all of the hard work, I guess I deserve a break…a real vacation. Well, too sad my whole family is in Boracay right now. They have left even before I assured them that I will graduate this semester. So I am spending my holy week alone. The whole house is mine. It’s quite exciting for I can do whatever I want. But I just realized that it’s actually depressing. Imagine, while Papa, Mama, Kuya, and Raymon are enjoying the Boracay heat, I am here at home watching DVD’s or surfing the net. Very customary! I don’t even have someone to talk to at least! Hay! Well, I will soon wear my sablay and will march down the walkway of Quezon Hall. My mom promised me that after the ceremonies, I can also go to Bora. But the thing is…I will go there alone. Yeah right! How can I take pleasure in that place if I will just be on my own? I guess I need to scout for some company now.