I was looking for a challenge in my work right now, for I find my tasks very humdrum. However, I never imagined putting myself into something tougher than what I looked forward to.
Being a fortunate employee, I was given a chance to take advantage of a career move. But I chose to acquire a much bigger leap—an action which, many of my officemates believe (though they would not admit), is a lose-lose situation.
Why did I choose the more rigid path, when there is a safer route available? Simple. I am in a hurry. I have to establish my career NOW. Otherwise, it will be so easy for me to resign and just be a bum, a law student, or an employee in another company. I have numerous choices. And right now, disappointment is but nothing, for I know that I will exhaust all my means to attain my goals.
Well, I know myself better than other people do. And I recognize for a fact that NEVER in my life did I put myself into something where I did not excel (…given that I have done my part, for I have failed UP Law once. Sh*t!) I have history as my witness. This was not just about being lucky enough. This was basically because I work really hard when I engage myself into something. Believe me when I say that I do not want lousy results. (Who the hell does, by the way?) I always strive to be one of the bests, if not the best, among the group.
My abilities will then be tested in three weeks time. And a week after this three-week long training, I am yet to face UP LAE (once more!). My golly! Suicidal it is, only if I think so. But for now, there is no room for failure. I have already let myself down once. I will not make it happen again.
Being a fortunate employee, I was given a chance to take advantage of a career move. But I chose to acquire a much bigger leap—an action which, many of my officemates believe (though they would not admit), is a lose-lose situation.
Why did I choose the more rigid path, when there is a safer route available? Simple. I am in a hurry. I have to establish my career NOW. Otherwise, it will be so easy for me to resign and just be a bum, a law student, or an employee in another company. I have numerous choices. And right now, disappointment is but nothing, for I know that I will exhaust all my means to attain my goals.
Well, I know myself better than other people do. And I recognize for a fact that NEVER in my life did I put myself into something where I did not excel (…given that I have done my part, for I have failed UP Law once. Sh*t!) I have history as my witness. This was not just about being lucky enough. This was basically because I work really hard when I engage myself into something. Believe me when I say that I do not want lousy results. (Who the hell does, by the way?) I always strive to be one of the bests, if not the best, among the group.
My abilities will then be tested in three weeks time. And a week after this three-week long training, I am yet to face UP LAE (once more!). My golly! Suicidal it is, only if I think so. But for now, there is no room for failure. I have already let myself down once. I will not make it happen again.
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