I hate busy days! It is as if I don’t have time for myself anymore. No time for television, no time for window-shoppings, no time for manicure and pedicure, no time for paperbacks, no time for friends, no time for SeaBest or Starbucks, no time for Drew’s, no time for girl talks, no time for sleep. I wake up early in the morning, and retire few minutes before the sun rises. How is that?! I’m so deprived of comfort nowadays. When pressure gets into me, I would just want to turn my back from all the tasks that are waiting to be accomplished, and enjoy the luxury of sitting back while getting pleasure from a movie and munching on a bucket full of barbeque-flavored popcorn. But can I do that?! Of course not! I just wish to, but it will obviously be impossible!!! So my diversion now? YOSI! I know, right???
But thinking about it, being busy does not always feature the miserable aspects of my life. How can it be? Besides from the fact that being such implies that I am trying my best for me to be able to pull all my obligations off, I will not have time to make myself more depressed as well. This is how it goes… Because of tiredness at the end of the day, it is but normal for me to sleep as soon as possible upon arriving home. And because I’m not a morning person, it is so hard for me to wake up early. Since I have so many activities in the school, the end product will again be a ‘dog-tired Ran arriving home late at night’… And the cycle goes on and on. With such scenario, I will not have leisure time to contemplate on what’s happening in my life anymore because I am very pre-occupied. Hence, I will not be able to identify flaws in my existence as a daughter, a sister, a student, a leader, a citizen, a friend, a dreamer, a woman, or even a human. Thus, I will not get disheartened. Haha! What a realization!
But thinking about it, being busy does not always feature the miserable aspects of my life. How can it be? Besides from the fact that being such implies that I am trying my best for me to be able to pull all my obligations off, I will not have time to make myself more depressed as well. This is how it goes… Because of tiredness at the end of the day, it is but normal for me to sleep as soon as possible upon arriving home. And because I’m not a morning person, it is so hard for me to wake up early. Since I have so many activities in the school, the end product will again be a ‘dog-tired Ran arriving home late at night’… And the cycle goes on and on. With such scenario, I will not have leisure time to contemplate on what’s happening in my life anymore because I am very pre-occupied. Hence, I will not be able to identify flaws in my existence as a daughter, a sister, a student, a leader, a citizen, a friend, a dreamer, a woman, or even a human. Thus, I will not get disheartened. Haha! What a realization!
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