hunt for truth

I find it obsequious how my co-workers ask me about my view on Lozada’s revelations. They really look at me now as a future lawyer. Yet I find it weird that I enjoy going over the details of the country’s search for truth about the ZTE Broadband deal, rather than concentrating on my job.
Rodolfo Lozada Jr. might have done lots of flaws in the past. He might not have been a reputable man, but I have this gut feel that he is trying his very best now to correct his mistakes, and to keep hold of the diminutive morality he has left for himself. So does this mean I believe in the allegations made by Jun Lozada (i.e. he was kidnapped; many of our government officials are just being manipulated by Malacañang, or by the president, in particular; corruption is rampant in our country; etc.)? Yes, I deem that ZTE issue’s star witness is telling the truth. It is not definitely just because I am anti-government, to begin with. The reason being is the rationality of the events, especially the testimonies of Lozada, versus the words of every person he is dragging in the picture. No matter how many times Lozada would reiterate his depositions, they remain consistent, unyielding. Unlike the declarations of the other side which are apparently erratic. They perhaps are having a hard time to come up with good scripts, and to acquire theatrical talents—things they claim Lozada has expertise on. Come on! Who will not give in if you are receiving tons of death threats everyday? if most, if not all eyes are now on you? if you slowly lose your friends and confidantes because of your choice to expose the fact? if many of the powerful people in the country are working against you? if the whole country is presently in turmoil because of your disclosures? if you throw away the hope to attain a peaceful life in the end? if your individuality has been mortified several times in the public? Regardless of what other people, especially your detractors, will say, the least you can do is to smile just to hide the pain, or to cry to fade the frustration out. It is quite obvious that this is not simply about line delivery and acting. This is about currently putting one’s life at risk, and possibly jeopardizing a number of lives more soon, merely to obtain the truth and to utilize this for Philippines’ upturn.
Truth is really hard to find. But despite this case, I hope that everyone hunts for truth still, not just for the truth behind the ZTE Broadband deal, but also for the truth behind happiness, enjoyment, satisfaction and peace of mind.