Here I go again—thinking, planning…
Being a bum gives me so much time to contemplate. And I cannot bear it, because just lately, I realized that I am becoming a thwarting planner. I planned to be a law student, to be a student leader again, to go to Bora, to stay in Parañaque when I work. But as caused by some uncontrolled circumstances, all my plans have not been implemented. Funny. Or should I say, disheartening. Imagine, I would be giving too much time and effort just to weigh things out and to reflect on what I would really want to do. But in the end, everything would just be gone in vain and I would be left hanging. Furthermore, I would be obliged to do nothing else but to come up with another plan just to move on. Yet again, it would turn out that the supposed solution would be fruitless. Nice.
That is why I miss being busy. I miss those times when I could hardly mull over anything else because I had to accomplish all my tasks. I miss having sleepless nights just to carry out my academic or extra curricular duties. I miss going to class. I miss being terrorized by my professors. I miss doing papers. I miss attending meetings. I miss my thesis days and nights. I miss going to the library. I miss reporting. I miss educational discussions. I miss comprehending readings. I miss delivering speeches. I miss CSC’s. I miss performing. I miss mobs. I miss the enrolment. I miss walking from FC, to AS, to NIGS, to Math Building, back to FC, to Vinzons. I miss my orgs. I miss riding Ikot and Toki jeeps. I miss Oble. I miss UP. But I guess I just miss being preoccupied, and doing the stuff I used to do for the four years of my stay in my beloved Alma Mater.
I am glad that I am gradually letting go of the bits and pieces I thought I will never learn to let go. I did not plan this. I am simply going with the flow of my everyday life.
I will never know what I would do in the future. I will start working on July 16 (yeah right! over a month more to go! bum galore!) and I am not sure if I will desire to stay long in that company. Perhaps, after working for a while, I will pursue going to UP Law School or to Ateneo Law School. Or maybe, I will look for a much better local job. I can even possibly go abroad and try my luck there. Better not plan it. I will just grab any ‘good’ opportunity that will come my way.
Being a bum gives me so much time to contemplate. And I cannot bear it, because just lately, I realized that I am becoming a thwarting planner. I planned to be a law student, to be a student leader again, to go to Bora, to stay in Parañaque when I work. But as caused by some uncontrolled circumstances, all my plans have not been implemented. Funny. Or should I say, disheartening. Imagine, I would be giving too much time and effort just to weigh things out and to reflect on what I would really want to do. But in the end, everything would just be gone in vain and I would be left hanging. Furthermore, I would be obliged to do nothing else but to come up with another plan just to move on. Yet again, it would turn out that the supposed solution would be fruitless. Nice.
That is why I miss being busy. I miss those times when I could hardly mull over anything else because I had to accomplish all my tasks. I miss having sleepless nights just to carry out my academic or extra curricular duties. I miss going to class. I miss being terrorized by my professors. I miss doing papers. I miss attending meetings. I miss my thesis days and nights. I miss going to the library. I miss reporting. I miss educational discussions. I miss comprehending readings. I miss delivering speeches. I miss CSC’s. I miss performing. I miss mobs. I miss the enrolment. I miss walking from FC, to AS, to NIGS, to Math Building, back to FC, to Vinzons. I miss my orgs. I miss riding Ikot and Toki jeeps. I miss Oble. I miss UP. But I guess I just miss being preoccupied, and doing the stuff I used to do for the four years of my stay in my beloved Alma Mater.
I am glad that I am gradually letting go of the bits and pieces I thought I will never learn to let go. I did not plan this. I am simply going with the flow of my everyday life.
I will never know what I would do in the future. I will start working on July 16 (yeah right! over a month more to go! bum galore!) and I am not sure if I will desire to stay long in that company. Perhaps, after working for a while, I will pursue going to UP Law School or to Ateneo Law School. Or maybe, I will look for a much better local job. I can even possibly go abroad and try my luck there. Better not plan it. I will just grab any ‘good’ opportunity that will come my way.
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