I believe I am forcing myself to write something about this for I ought not to. I am not in the mood to blurt things out but this idea has long been running through my head.
I liked him. Yes, it was in the past. I do not know the reason behind but it just happened. Months passed but nothing flourished, until such time that I got to focus my attention to someone else. And so I hated him, not because I felt that the feeling was not mutual, but because he pissed me off several times at work. I sensed that he is not effective in his position. True enough, many people think so as well.
Life is such a trick! I was trying hard to befriend him to make myself feel comfortable when he is around. However, due to unforeseen, and I must say desirable things that came into the picture, my intention transformed into something much deeper…deeper than it was initially. I am enjoying the ride so far. It is even more exciting to note that there are developments in the process. But things still remain vague. I am certain that it will be impossible, but I want to know what is exactly on his mind. My friends are pushing me to make a move, but why would I? I have been hurt several times and I will not dare to be a masochist again and again. I guess I simply have to take pleasure in what is currently happening between us. If nothing is supposed to progress, then so be it. I may not be in the mood to talk about this now, but I hope to get a bigger picture SOON.
I liked him. Yes, it was in the past. I do not know the reason behind but it just happened. Months passed but nothing flourished, until such time that I got to focus my attention to someone else. And so I hated him, not because I felt that the feeling was not mutual, but because he pissed me off several times at work. I sensed that he is not effective in his position. True enough, many people think so as well.
Life is such a trick! I was trying hard to befriend him to make myself feel comfortable when he is around. However, due to unforeseen, and I must say desirable things that came into the picture, my intention transformed into something much deeper…deeper than it was initially. I am enjoying the ride so far. It is even more exciting to note that there are developments in the process. But things still remain vague. I am certain that it will be impossible, but I want to know what is exactly on his mind. My friends are pushing me to make a move, but why would I? I have been hurt several times and I will not dare to be a masochist again and again. I guess I simply have to take pleasure in what is currently happening between us. If nothing is supposed to progress, then so be it. I may not be in the mood to talk about this now, but I hope to get a bigger picture SOON.
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